11.57pm.

Yes, yes. I never call, I never write. I finished my undoable semester and now I'm beginning the undoable job search. I'm in the CoC half of my life, and doing manual labour at Merial the other half. (Not really.) But the point is...

Does this website even have a point? I kinda think not, and this inspires me to give up the self-important façade. Of course we all like to think that we're different, more relevant to more people and more interesting as a result. I like the idea that I can keep in touch with people, and I hate that people read this and think they can get offended about my personal random ass thoughts. I like the idea that I have something forcing me (ha) to write more often, and then I go and neglect it for months on end. I like reading about things I used to think...? Why not keep a personal journal then? A private paper diary? Something about showing-off, I suppose. When something is created, there's a degree of pride, and a desire to show it to someone, I think. Were it only that my own pride in myself was reward enough. Perhaps I rely too highly upon others' compliments and envy.

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things I'm doing this--my final--semester:

  • taking 4 classes in CoC101. in the same room for 5 hours on wednesdays.
  • still making web pages.
  • writing ai, debating whether true ai is possible. and LOVIN' IT. I want to be a gofai junkie.
  • reading the new yorker, because my mom got nicholas and I a subscription because she rocks. :) it is doing more to improve my literary nature than stupid journal entries once every 5 months will be capable of.
  • watching the history channel a lot. I just finished a history's mysteries about marilyn monroe's... suicide? murder? and now there's an awesome special on about the neanderthal man. also fantabulous, if it's ever rerun: TR: An American Lion. another random thing no one else will probably ever run into is a cool ass lecture from a dude visiting berkeley who talks about the biological nature and evolutionary theories regarding cannabis. it was hilarious and awesome.
  • doin' a little yoga. it seems like every single journal girl I read is doing yoga lately. so I will discuss it no further than to say that it really is pretty cool.
  • still revelling in the goodness of the hours which I saw last friday. I anticipate a wallowing in mrs. dalloway when it arrives from amazon.
  • (realizing I haven't checked the mail today.)
  • (...)
  • (being frustrated that my amazon stuff hasn't come yet, even though I ordered it friday night.)
  • playin' go, cause I got nicholas a go board for christmas and am in the process of convincing him how much cooler it is than chess.
  • cooking a lot. actually, I've been cooking since I first moved in with nick, back in april, but just basic stuff mostly. (though I did make a fuckin' rockin' vegetarian lasagna last summer.) but recently I've been on a hardcore, make-everything-from-scratch kick. in the last month, I've made three different kinds of lattice-top fruit pies, a very fancy salmon with green sauce, some spicy shrimp pasta with garlic, rosemary and basil, and very very yummy homemade salsa with lotsa cilantro. I drool over kitchen appliances, like the kitchenaid standing mixer.
  • sleeping. hehehehe. I'm going to do that! ta ta, peeps. I kill myself.

(ps: I have more old pictures from christmas break coming soon. stay tuned, batfans!)