11.57pm.
Yes, yes. I never call, I never write. I finished my undoable semester
and now I'm beginning the undoable job search. I'm in the CoC half of my
life, and doing manual labour at Merial the other half. (Not really.) But
the point is...
Does this website even have a point? I kinda think not, and
this
inspires me to give up the self-important façade. Of course we all
like to think that we're different, more relevant to more people and
more interesting as a result. I like the idea that I can keep in touch
with people, and I hate that people read this and think they can get
offended about my personal random ass thoughts. I like the idea that I have
something forcing me (ha) to write more often, and then I go and neglect it
for months on end. I like reading about things I used to think...? Why not
keep a personal journal then? A private paper diary? Something about
showing-off, I suppose. When something is created, there's a degree of
pride, and a desire to show it to someone, I think. Were it only that my
own pride in myself was reward enough. Perhaps I rely too highly upon
others' compliments and envy.
***
things I'm doing this--my final--semester:
- taking 4 classes in CoC101. in the same room for 5 hours on
wednesdays.
- still making web pages.
- writing ai, debating whether true ai is possible. and LOVIN'
IT. I want to be a gofai junkie.
- reading the new yorker, because my mom got nicholas and I a
subscription because she rocks. :) it is doing more to
improve my literary nature than stupid journal entries once every 5
months will be capable of.
- watching the history channel a lot. I just finished a history's
mysteries about marilyn monroe's... suicide? murder? and now
there's an awesome special on about the neanderthal man. also
fantabulous, if it's ever rerun: TR: An American Lion. another
random thing no one else will probably ever run into is a cool ass
lecture from a dude visiting berkeley who talks about the biological
nature and evolutionary theories regarding cannabis. it was
hilarious and awesome.
- doin' a little yoga. it seems like every single journal girl I
read is doing yoga lately. so I will discuss it no further than to
say that it really is pretty cool.
- still revelling in the goodness of the hours which I saw
last friday. I anticipate a wallowing in mrs. dalloway when
it arrives from amazon.
- (realizing I haven't checked the mail today.)
- (...)
- (being frustrated that my amazon stuff hasn't come yet, even
though I ordered it friday night.)
- playin' go, cause I got nicholas a go board for christmas and am
in the process of convincing him how much cooler it is than chess.
- cooking a lot. actually, I've been cooking since I first moved
in with nick, back in april, but just basic stuff mostly. (though I
did make a fuckin' rockin' vegetarian lasagna last summer.) but
recently I've been on a hardcore, make-everything-from-scratch kick.
in the last month, I've made three different kinds of
lattice-top fruit pies, a very fancy salmon with green sauce, some
spicy shrimp pasta with garlic, rosemary and basil, and very very
yummy homemade salsa with lotsa cilantro. I drool over kitchen
appliances, like the kitchenaid standing mixer.
- sleeping. hehehehe. I'm going to do that! ta ta, peeps. I
kill myself.
(ps: I have more old pictures from christmas break coming soon.
stay tuned, batfans!)
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