3.27pm
Tuesday
4 October 2005

You know how you get scared or worried or nervous, but you don't want to be scared or worried or nervous, so you push it to the back of your mind? You try not to think about it. Your amygdala is what lets you do that. It's like a filter in your brain that keeps your feelings in check. She feels everything; she can't not.

--Firefly

I've been a little paralyzed by tumultuous indecision lately. It sucks. I have no effing clue what I want to be doing next year in NYC, or what I should be doing, or what I'm capable of doing at any time, now or ever. Why is ambition so lauded? Blind ambition is just a one-way ticket to disaster and depression, isn't it? Or do smart people metier their ambition up and make something out of nothing? Really?

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I'm also a bit terrified of how much I will miss a few people here in Atlanta. There's some v. fabulous people here and I love them a lot.

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